First session with my therapist in three weeks. Hard to cope, as I usually see her weekly. We had lots to talk about and I filled her in on my holidays. I am currently in the throes of rapid cycling and it is wearing me down. If you’re not sure what that is, it is like climbing to the top of Mt. Everest and dropping off the apex at the speed of light. On one end it’s something I like, because when I am in Mania I am creative. I also talk too much, do things I wouldn’t normally do, wear myself so thin that I can’t sleep, and get cranky because others can’t keep up with me.
On the other end, when I am in Depression, it feels like someone is sitting on my chest, I can’t breathe, and all I want to do is hide under the covers and cry. Neither is good for me and I have a few things to try to help. Currently they are: meditating twice a day, blogging, art journaling, crossword puzzles, jigsaw puzzles and lots and lots of reading.
My psychiatrist and I are trying an experiment using blue blocking glasses to watch tv or be on the computer when I’m manic. The theory is that the bright light makes the mania worse. I don’t know the results yet, because my first pair of blue blocking glasses broke and I had to buy another. I’ll keep you posted on that. So, it’s time for me, time to relax Tonight it’s going to be the jigsaw puzzle. I love putting together the 1,000 piece Charles Wysocki puzzles. I’ll post a picture when I’m done with it.